Confused Reflection

If I had a choice I would make it so I would never be confused again. I would understand those around me, their actions, their words. I would understand things even when I was dreaming. In my existence, confusion is an annoyance that deserves to be gotten rid of. It doesn't help me at all, though it signals that I have something I need to learn. If I could easily comprehend all things as well as I comprehend some I would be quite happy. I don't like not understanding something, because for me it feels like I've done something wrong. I haven't learned the right things, or talked to the right people, or maybe certain parts of my mind aren't working right. I guess it all ties in with blaming myself for everything. I guess I have to stop that.
As for the delayed post, it's because my computer broke, then my parent's computer broke, and when I was allowed to use this computer, I forgot I had a blog. x.x Not that anybody who doesn't know me in person reads this thing...but still. To explain, I'm down in Florida for the summer. My computer is here and will be fixed at some point, but until then I get on this one every once in a while. Unfortunately I have about a month before I have to go back. I'm working on several stories and now have a notebook to put my new poems in. I don't really feel like typing much. So I'll leave you here.

--Reflecting Back, Malachite