Unwanted

Have you ever felt unwanted? I mean...even when you're surrounded by friends? Have you ever noticed how fake their smiles seemed, or noticed that look in their eyes? The look that shows how much they'd rather you weren't there. I have. I've seen the disgusted looks, the hurtful comments, and I've had enough. From this moment on I'll remember, friends don't exist. Unless you love someone and they love you back they will all grow sick of you and abandon you sooner or later. I'm through with coming home only to burst into tears, I'm sick of being hurt. Perhaps if I close myself off from outside emotions the hurt will go away. No matter how unwanted I feel, I'll ignore it. I'll keep those few I love and trust, and all others can just leave, as they've wanted to all along. I never want to get close to someone again...